I Don't Feel Like a Teacher!

My husband by craft and nature is a teacher. No matter what you ask him, he can explain it 3-4 different ways. He will even draw you a picture or a map depending on what it takes for you to understand. It comes so natural and is quite a sight to see. I do not have that same ability. However, in the last few years I see God leading me slowly more in the teaching direction, yet I do not feel like a teacher.

Three years ago my children went to a great private school. I thought the academics were wonderful and the competition was fierce. The dynamic of children coming from successful family back rounds made it so the majority of kids took school seriously and tried there best. The only major issue our children had was the way that they felt. We came from a less affluent area and would commute every day to bring them to school. In school the kids would talk about there vacations and things they had or did which our children did not have and it made them feel less than. Despite that the kids still made friends and after a few years I felt God's prompting to Homeschool. In my reluctance to act the school had a change in authority and financing and could no longer offer us the financial aid we needed to keep the kids in private school. "Coincedence"? I think not!

If you wont move, God will move you!

Instantly I became a teacher. My first year teaching was probably the hardest as I wasn't sure of what curriculm to use and tried many. I prayed, watched videos and spent endless hours on pinterest, seeking knowledge on how to appropriate time and keep good records. Not to mention I needed to teach two different grades at the same time, so I had to learn what all that required. Children being natural manipulators led us to many lessons on boundaries and discipline. Yet we all learned alot and enjoyed it despite the hiccups. Year two of Homeschool I felt God leading me to a more online curriculm and a local co op. Co op is a location where homeschool families get together and teach/learn together. Another opportunity for me to be around great teachers and try my hand at another group with my children. God sure does provide opportunity!

A few months after I felt comfortable with the weekly co op. My church was seeking some assistance helping teach Sunday school twice a week. Interesting....again I feel that gentle nudge, you should do this. God what does all this mean? I don't feel like a teacher, I can barely explain how to do something one way let alone make if fun for these kids so they retain it. Be obedient he says...

In the bible it tells us we can't always trust our feelings, do you know why? Sin, sin affects everything. Our hearts are corrupt and are feelings are always changing. We are fighting a battle of the flesh, a battle only won if we give it to God daily.

Don't always trust your feelings, offer it up to God and expect him to work!

I am going to be honest with you. Clearly I don't feel like a teacher but God calls us all to teach in some way or another. Even though I marvel at my husband who does it so naturally, I can still teach. I will do what I can and expect God to do the rest. Where God calls us he equips us. I don't expect it to be easy or even for me to fully enjoy each step but I do intend to obey. I will continue to do it regardless how I feel!

“Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.” James 1:22

“The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever.” 1 John 2:17

“Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who

built his house on the rock.” Matthew 7:24

“Whoever heeds discipline shows the way to life, but whoever ignores correction leads others astray.” Proverbs 10:17

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding (Prov. 3:5). Whoever trusts in his own mind is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom will be delivered (Prov. 28:26). The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it? (Jer. 17:9).